Weak and Powerless

so many times it happens. the small feeling you get when you see that person who means so much to you and never seems to show it. those are the moments when you feel small, unwanted, unloved. when you look into their eyes and all you see is dispassion. that you are nothing.

you remember the times when things were good, when everything was sunshine and starburst. when slaughtering the world was the smallest request. when nothing else mattered but those eyes.

you remember why it ended, because you pushed, you wanted that connection that never was reached, when all you wanted was for them to do something they couldn't do. when you pretended to understand, but never could. when you reacted y pushing further, and causing the apocalypse of your own life.

when you realise it was all your own fault, when it was because you had to have your own way. that's when you feel it.

"desperate, and lonely. so weak and powerless, over you..."