Love is Boring

"I take whatever you're giving, not enough..."
- Sneaker pimps, 6 underground

Hello all and welcome to my little place where i say some things that may or may not upset you. But yes, ignore my sarcasm, and listen instead to my free voice, one of the few left...

ok. so this is a discussion as to why these notes exist. why do we put them up? why do we use this form of expression to speak? is it a mere need to express oneself, and have others read it, approve it? is it a need for attention, a want for others to kno0w that you started the idea first; the public forum of blogs, notes on facebook and whatever else we use on the digital world to put these little pieces of ourselves on merely an excuse to be the centre of attention?

what, constant reader as Stephen king would call you, is the reason for you doing it? reading it, putting it up there for everyone to see? is it because when we actually put something on and clai9m it to be a problem we are dealing with, a piece of writing to express our current emotions, the truth of the matter is that what we have written there has actually nothing to do with reality? or is it that we have become so intrigued with the literary lattice that once we put it down, thats it. its done. its complete.

i have a need to write because i want it to be my profession. i want others to read what i put up there so that i feel i have some form of fan base, or at least something to start with. for criticism, etc. but then comes the problem that a lot of what i have written is too intense for a normal reader to simply read. most contains some message for/to someone and one cannot simply read it and hope for salvation, or even as a mere pastime. but i wrote them. was it my release? i truly don't know. then there are many sojourns of stream of consciousness writing, experiments in style, scandal and even subcoscious. but do any of you get it? i doubt it, not because i suck at writing, not because you are too stupid, but because you cannot know my mind, nor can you know the mind of Orwell, King, Lovecraft, Eddings or anyone. you can guess, but you'll never be right.

so after all the lack of capitals, all the small children running around screaming, all of you wondering why i've tagged you (to those who read this from my blog, if you exist, it imports directly into facebook, whereupon i choose my victims and tag the fuckers) its because you've all either committed the crime of putting something up publicly, or you've read my work, or the works of others. so i ask you why, why do you do it? and if theres a good reason, is there a point? has it helped, and do you actively read peoples notes? if you do, is it merely because you have become addicted to the voyeurism of facebook or the internet, or because you care....?

does it relate to you at all?

" i'm falling in love
with the thrill of the kill
and at this masquerade
you're the clown and criminal

i will be the devil
in your land of make believe
tell me how the view is
down there on your knees"
-Dog Fashion Disco, Adultery